Thursday, April 29, 2010

3 Miles ... Times 2?

Today I walked my usual 3 miles. I walked with a friend & didn't feel that I was really pushing myself. Is it possible that I'm getting in better shape & need to pick up the pace? I told my husband when I got home that I didn't feel tired & that I like to exercise until exhaustion. That's when I really feel the burn. So, after a couple of hours, I headed back out & walked 3 more miles. I walked at speeds that were much faster than I thought capable - but no jogging yet for this girl. I can't seem to run as I cannot catch my breath. I keep hoping to lose another 10 pounds before Mother's Day so when I go home, my family will notice my progress. Right now it's difficult to see, but I'm only 20 pounds from another very big goal. Better get back to tracking my food so I can get this weight off!

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Is a Heart Arythmia REALLY that bad???

I entered my weight info into the Weight Watcher's website. Guess what? It told me I was losing too fast & I could end up with a heart arythmia. I remember years ago when I lost a lot of weight. People told me they were worried about me, and all I could do was smile. I guess it's the risk I'll take because I'm thrilled to announce that I lost over 5 lbs this past week for a total of 20 lbs! I think Weight Watcher's is alarmed because if I lose this quickly, I will be at my goal & they won't be able to charge me for my meetings. Seems suspicious? Whatever! I dread the plateau, and I know it's coming, but I am relishing in this moment today. Woot Woot! Way to go Becky with your 8 lb weight lost! You rock!

Monday, April 26, 2010

Rain, Rain, Go AWAY!

I haven't been able to do my 3 mile walks lately. I'm not one who likes to walk in the frigid rain. Brr! I've been riding my exercise bike the past few days & am ready for another weekly weigh in. Hoping for happy news and so far, my scale is smiling on me! Wish I could go in, strip naked, and weigh that way, but I may scare off a few of the other people there! According to my scale at home, I've lost 20 pounds! This is my first personal goal. My next goal is to get below 200 lbs. Can't wait to see that happen, and it's much closer than it was a month ago!!! I will post my weigh in amount after I get weighed this evening...

Thursday, April 22, 2010


Yep. I have a giant badonkadonk. I'm aware. I don't need reminders of this constantly. I exercise and I diet & it's still big. Someday it won't be, but I don't need to be told or have it pointed out to others that it's a tad bit large. I'm hitting a bit of a plateau. I plan to continue on this journey, but I dreaded the dang plateau. My body is screaching to a halt & I'm trying to get it going. I haven't cheated on my diet & my exercise is getting more frequent & increasing in intensity. I will not quit, but UGH. I need to keep going down, down, down. Think small!

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Feeling fat today

Not sure why, but I'm feeling fat today. I didn't walk today, so I figure that it's all in my head. I'm getting ready to work out on the Wii to the Biggest Loser game. It seriously kicks my butt. My diet has been good today. I'm way under my points, so I will be able to have a decent dinner. My stress levels are high because my children have been terribly whiny today. I am not going to stress eat. Just gonna stress workout. I guess that's a better alternative! So, we shall see how successful my workout can be when my kids are both home. Should be interesting to see if they interrupt me 50 times. Here goes nothing! By the way - A certain someone started her Weight Watchers program yesterday. She's doing awesome! Since she's my only reader, if she reads this - CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!! You are doing great!!!!!

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Learning to love me

I haven't been my biggest fan. In fact, I'm my worst critic most of the time. I used to look at others who are thin & envy them & want to be them. Now I am starting to feel differently. I don't want to be them, but I want to be a thinner version of me. I want to love myself and not be disgusted with myself when I look in the mirror. The pounds are melting away with a lot of perseverance and hard work. It's only been a month, but I already feel different. I'm excited to see what the future holds for me as I walk through this journey. I know that I will always struggle with my weight. Even when I reach my goal, I will continue with my journey for the rest of my life. That's why it's important to make this a lifestyle change and not a diet. I don't feel deprived. I do miss the fatty, fried foods. I'm trying to find other ways to reward myself when I do well. But, dang. I want to eat an entire plate of potato skins. Doesn't that sound so yummy? Oh well. Maybe when I reach my first goal of 42 pounds, I will reward myself with that! But for now, I will settle with my low fat foods and find other ways to reward myself...

Monday, April 19, 2010

Still going...

Week three weigh -in at Weight Watcher's brought me to my 5% goal! I am so motivated right now. I really enjoy and really need to go to the meetings weekly. I lost 3.2 more pounds this week for a total of 14.8 lbs. Darn it - I was so close to the 15 pound mark, but that gives me a goal for next week. I walked 3 miles again today. It feels wonderful to be up & about. I played baseball yesterday with my kids and it was great to be out there & not be a "sideline" mom. Ronnie was thrilled that I actually got up & played! I'm watching myself change & become healthier. I will become the princess in the picture on my mantle & my daughter will learn one day that I am that girl.

Our Weight Watcher's instructor talked today about making every day the same & not treating weekends as "special". This is not a diet, but a new way of living. When I do well, I will reward myself. But I will do it with something other than food. I bought new workout clothes yesterday & actually went down a size! That was a great reward. If I feel stressed, instead of reaching for food, I will try to take a walk & work off the stress. It's working and I FEEL GREAT!

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Starting on the Journey to a Healthier Me

This is me in an (obviously) candid shot - pushing Gracie on a teeter totter. This is me at my highest weight. I have no posed pictures. Cameras are a thing of avoidance for me. Hopefully not for long!

I said I would never broadcast my weight to anyone. I have had several things trigger me lately to start on the road to a healthier me. It recently started when Gracie saw my wedding picture. She didn't recognize me and said that the girl in the picture was a princess. She could not understand that it as Mommy - a few pounds lighter (101 pounds lighter to be exact). Wow! I don't know how that happened to me. I live in a state of denial & find too much pleasure in fried fatty foods. Recently, I had to start wearing wrist braces at night because my hands are going numb. My knees have the beginning stages of arthritis.

So, now that I have had an awakening, I have decided to change things. My life changed on 3/29/10 when I decided to join Weight Watchers. As of 4/12/10, I have lost 11.6 pounds. I have started walking at least 4 times per week for 3 miles at a time. I really want to be more active and play with my kids. I have been known to sit in a chair while they play on their own. I don't want this to be the memory my children have of me. Ronnie has been the most supportive. He praises me for eating healthy & is trying to do much of the same! I have 2 friends that I met in small group. One friend is on the same point level as me and my other friend is almost at her goal. It's wonderful to have this support! I also have another friend who walks with me several times a week.

This is only the beginning. I plan to make a change. I am hoping to share my weight on this blog, but give me some time and courage to post it publicly. I'm still coming to terms with the numbers on the scale. Life isn't about a number. I want to move more and without pain. I want to embrace life & play with my children. I want to be a happier and better wife. Most of all, I want to love myself again. It's been a long time since I have and it's time for a change. This blog is for me. I don't know that anyone will ever read it, but I want a place to jot down how I'm feeling. I'm eating much healthier, moving & exercising more, and taking things one day at a time. My weigh-ins are on Monday afternoons. I will update my progress regularly.

One thing I do need to add - If I can do this, so can you! So can anyone who has struggled with their weight. My life has consisted of Yo-yo diets. This time WILL be different. Who wants to join me on this journey? We can do it!!!